meeting enemies

It's funny meeting people you have long considered your enemies. For example, I'm meeting with a friend today, who is bringing with her a friend turned enemy. Well, she was always an enemy I suppose, I just didn't notice until very far into our "friendship." I suppose she's a "frenemy." What I find funny is that I'm getting ready for this meeting as I would a date. I put on some jewelry which I otherwise never wear. I put on a revealing top. I don't even do that for dates. With men, I'd rather see if they're actually interested in me, and they don't need the hassle of having their eyes pulled downward. But with girls, namely the ones you don't get along with...I think it shows confidence. It kind of gives you something to stand on. If an argument breaks out, as a last resort, you can at least stick out your chest as if to say, "Oh yeah?! Well, argue THESE." Granted, I have a nice coverup over the shirt, so my shoulders aren't showing. I if possible, it's even more confident than a just little cleavage with no thought otherwise. I put on my usual tinted moisturizer and powder and blush, but also did mascara. I don't do that for dates, much as I don't do it at work; for the fear of having something to cry about at some point if it goes badly. Not with an enemy. I don't expect anything to go wrong, and if it does, I don't expect to give her that benefit. I even curled my hair. I usually avoid this, as it generally turns out strangely on my pin straight, volume packed hair in the middle of summer. But, with all that confidence flying around, I figured what the hell...

I gotta say, it turned out awesomely.

So what have we learned?
Cleavage + Cover in all the right places = Confidence.
I should go on a date directly after meeting my enemy, since obviously I put all the effort into those meetings.

Now, I'm off to a lovely brunch, with a friend, and a frenemy.

Conflict

I think I am innately drawn to conflict. I don't necessarily like it, but it is some excitement for my otherwise dull life. Let's face it. I have a steady boyfriend, so that chase is not necessary. My friends are largely gone from my life, and frankly while I miss having people around, I don't miss those particular people. The ones I do have left are seemingly situational and otherwise far away in distance.
So, I settle for finding conflict. In blogrings, in my family, in acquaintances. It intrigues me. I may try to help diffuse it, I may make it a lot worse. Seems to depend on the day. I generally think I LIKE to play peacekeeper. But I've never been good at it. People don't like the peacekeeper. So I become pretty damn obnoxious to counter my tendencies. I want to participate in conflict, but if people won't have the good me, they will damn well be stuck with the bad me.
Maybe I just like manipulating situations. I do enjoy a good psych study I think. I like to see how people react. Generally, they're predictable, but I'm fascinated. I suppose it's not all bad. But I don't remember the last time I said "oh nah. don't argue, not worth it." It very well might NOT be worth it. I can't seem to tell the difference. WWJD? I dunno. He seems to be about an objective truth...but I don't know that he lived in a world where people are ONLY subjective.

I have no idea what this is

So, blogspot huh.

No clue. Found it, and like all other blogs ever, wanna try it. I always need a place to keep track of my thoughts or else I fear that I might lose them.