Conflict

I think I am innately drawn to conflict. I don't necessarily like it, but it is some excitement for my otherwise dull life. Let's face it. I have a steady boyfriend, so that chase is not necessary. My friends are largely gone from my life, and frankly while I miss having people around, I don't miss those particular people. The ones I do have left are seemingly situational and otherwise far away in distance.
So, I settle for finding conflict. In blogrings, in my family, in acquaintances. It intrigues me. I may try to help diffuse it, I may make it a lot worse. Seems to depend on the day. I generally think I LIKE to play peacekeeper. But I've never been good at it. People don't like the peacekeeper. So I become pretty damn obnoxious to counter my tendencies. I want to participate in conflict, but if people won't have the good me, they will damn well be stuck with the bad me.
Maybe I just like manipulating situations. I do enjoy a good psych study I think. I like to see how people react. Generally, they're predictable, but I'm fascinated. I suppose it's not all bad. But I don't remember the last time I said "oh nah. don't argue, not worth it." It very well might NOT be worth it. I can't seem to tell the difference. WWJD? I dunno. He seems to be about an objective truth...but I don't know that he lived in a world where people are ONLY subjective.